Thursday, January 10, 2019

On being still

When life gets overwhelming and threatens to suffocate you, you have to just be still. Lay on the bed and concentrate in getting air in and out of your lungs. It is highly likely that during this process that your heart will bleed saltwater tears from your eyes. That is ok. It's the only way for the hurt to not hurt so bad. Crying is ok. Just remember to breathe while it's happening.

In and out. In and out.

If you're lucky unconsciousness will claim you and you will drift into a dreamless sleep. In and out. In and out. Don't move. Don't think. Don't talk. Just breathe. Let the oxygen push the heaviness from your chest. Let it flow through your heart and down your cheeks.

Be still. Just breathe. Cry.

In and out. In and out.

Breathe.

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

Reflections of 2018

I started 2018 at home. Chillin' & drinkin & reflecting. I made resolutions that I call goals. I anticipated what might be next.
2018 brought me-

A lot of travel
Legal adult children
Old friends
New friends
Reciprocity
Kindness and love
Graduation parties
A 4.0 gpa
14 hour service days
Italy & France
The ability to say no kindly
Babies
Death
More service
Men that come
And men that go
Nutritionists
Cross country drives
Arabic & English

Good year. This was a good year. I'm ready for Next.

2019 let's go.


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